...the song..
i was on the way to the office today so early in 5:40 am and turned up the radio and hearing the song by ahmad dhani or dewa 19 if i'm not mistaken. the lyrics that keeps occupying my memory was sung...:
...jika surga dan neraka tak pernah ada
masihkah kita bersujud padaNya...
(free translation) ...if the heaven and hell were never exist
are we still worshiping Him...
...
what a question...
the question is asking the motivation behind our act of worshipping God.
i had also heard a questions sometime ago: “ok, the heaven & hell are exists, but then the quota are full...are still worshipping god?”
given those 2 similar questions and the spontaneus answer that i had... i am little bit affraid & confused, deep in my heart i feel like i am a merchant/trader when dealing with God...i always hoping returns when i do good deeds and even doing ibadah...this is not correct, i think...
...the analog...
hmmm...i don't wannabe a merchant to God since He give me a lot and i would not trade anything that i have now with anything else...
there was a story is almost fit with my situation right now…
Supposedly I have friend… this is very close friends and by meeting him only and spent hours of conversations already satisfied both of us and make us very happy especially myself will be very happy … fortunately he owns a beautiful resorts in Bali…
As a very closed friend…he offer a free stay at his resort and all the expense will be on him…when the offer come in the first time …I will take that offer and I feel very fortunate to have such a friend…
Can you imagine what is my friend feelings, if every time we meet I am asking to get a free night stay at his resorts…?
That is my situation between me and God right now….astaghfirullah…I am trying to meet him 5 times a day or more…but I am always becoming an ‘annoying friend’ by asking him a same questions…
(to be continued)
Wassalam
Jakarta 15 April 2008
